I want to curse and reject the spirit of caring too much because it’s costing me way too much. It’s turning me to an angry adult and it’s totally against the resolutions I made when I became one.
I’m a nice person, I have a good heart, I’m so full of love and I spend most of my time and energy putting smiles of peoples faces. I mean TLC perfectly fits a description of me but somehow I’m convinced it’s not the best thing.
I’m literally giving away my peace, emotional stability, mental health, appetite, energy, concentration, a smile, sleep and money while all I’m getting is emotional damage, anxiety, regrets and trauma.
Some things will turn me into a mental case or awaken the psycho in me if I keep caring too much about everything. I know I am an overthinker but I’m consciously choosing to watch some things just fall apart if they have to for my well being.
I’ve been sad and angry for over a week now for the same reason. I have been craving to break a few bones because that’s the only way I could be happy but that’s not who I am, not what I do, not what I’d allow myself to engage in so I choose me over everything and everyone else.
Always remember to say several F*cks if you feel like I do. Just realised it helps a lot
Adios!
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