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Breathe

What do people get by the words “we are all equal”? I’m looking at people my age who have accomplished things that my Parents haven’t in their old age. I’m also looking at people in their half lifes who haven’t accomplished a thing in their lives. What brings this whole difference is probably the mystery of life and I’m not about to answer cause I absolutely got no answer too.

I dont so much believe in hardwork (sorry) but I’m sure if we all worked hard equally we still wouldnt be equal so can you take a deep breathe and just do your best. There is a lot of pressure in becoming successful (measured by your own understanding) especially among the millenials and we forget to actually be sure of what we want to succeed in or how to go about it. I’m saying it again we all cannot be equal but maybe we can have equal chances at different times, get it right.

I’m skipping this thing called fate cause it scares me sometimes but I know a thing about it, You cant avoid it.

There are a lot of factors that define us, we are all different and it is measurable. I mean, have you ever been with friends your age who spend money like drug dealers? Appetizers, bottomless mimosas, adding guacamole and everything and then also spent time with friends who stay hungry for over 24 hours to afford one meal the next day? Breathe, darling that’s them find a purpose and an interesting one, own it, value it, enjoy it and keep making it better for you. That, will define you.

Yours,

Miss Curiosity

Confusion

It’s not insomnia tonight, it’s more of confusion.

Thanks for stopping by my name is Miss Curiosity and I’m always on the keyboard expressing myself to myself and others. If you have noticed there are a little changes to my blog simply because I was trying to refocus my mind. Of late I have a thousand thoughts about a single thing and only two answers to each (positive and negative) hoping this was a positive one.

Been wondering, do you all jot down your to do lists every day before going to bed or my memory is too blunt to remember what I wanted to do the following day? or maybe to make it easier do you do plans on a weekly, monthly or daily basis? when plans change, do you remember to switch to the new plan or a lot is left pending after attending an impromptu agenda?

It’s quite a confusion for me. I haven’t been employed for some time now I have been running my businesses and it somehow has been freestyle because I am my own boss. It is also not a good thing cause I miss going to work for a whole week and everything seems okay leaving me thinking maybe I’m doing less of what I should be doing or my co-workers are super cool. Anyway the past one month I have been trying to work a little extra for my upcoming business and at the same time there is an opportunity for me in one of the statutory bodies which I have always wanted to work with so I have been chasing that too. I jot down my to do list and cancel it like thrice everyday. I’m at a point where I have to write down ‘4. Buy food for dinner‘ because I have literally slept hungry because I didn’t know my fridge only had ice cubes.

I sleep with a well written to do list only to wake up and change the whole plan just because someone left a message while going to bed at 3.00 AM and I’m the one in need here so I have to.

Is it worth it though?

I’m also having a dilemma, between the job, my current business and my upcoming business, which is more important? I honestly feel like at the end I’m going to sacrifice one, if not completely (at the moment) it will definitely be affected greatly. I’m so passionate about all and I feel so ‘selfish’ not accepting I’m one person trying everything at the same time which is kind of tough.

“What does overtime even mean?” I really need extra hours a day just to feel safe and ahead of my own capacity if that makes sense. Life can be overwhelming and 2020 seems not to care at all. Can you who used to tell me I’m a strong woman come and tell me it means I can be like three people in one person in terms of what I can do? Mmh! I’m always full of questions with no answers but don’t worry it’s exactly who I am that’s why I fight with my keyboard to an extent I type a whole post and delete or post and pull it down immediately.

I have just remembered I did this post ‘Are you too skeptical‘ and the whole point was I can defy all odds I only need hope and a little confidence in myself. If you haven’t read please click on the link below and check it out.

https://wwwruthogutu.design.blog/2020/07/09/are-you-too-skeptical/

It’s midnight my time goodnight, no insomnia today.

Liking my post is a mark that you came across it while on your busy and serious business online. let me know

cheers!

‘Dip’ thoughts

Thanks for stopping by, being a lazy day I just want to remind you something.

Do whatever you want, break rules, get embarrassed, flip tables, love, hate, you can even scream loudly for no apparent reason or go back and forth in no direction if that makes sense,,, because at the end of it all, you are just a speck of dust to life.

Miss curiosity.

Current situation 1

I am happy, really happy, super excited. Who doesn’t want the fulfillment of being responsible and in control.

That’s my current situation but guess what? Nothing is working out perfectly except that I am happy this time cause I feel in control Huh! Of late I’m walking head high kind of I know the final results and if I dont atleast I’m anticipating for the best.

Long story short, I’m smiling hard and I can’t wait to actually prove I’m right about this feeling. I even gave my myself a pep talk this morning and I was like yeah!!! Go! Go! Go! That’s it, that’s all you need, don’t lose it

BE HAPPY

Enough

I’d sell myself for a cheeseburger and a nap right now, that’s how much enough I have had the last 3 days. If you know me so well you definitely know I am insomniac and that shit isn’t fun at all. It’s my fourth day today and just how much did I sleep cumulatively? less than three hours in four days. Goodness! I just can’t calm down and I don’t know what’s going on. I have been on the move but I don’t know doing what exactly.

I feel like hibernating for a while this week. I have just worked for less an hour and my concentration left an hour ago I guess and I just feel like a zombie. I have been having panic attacks on and off and I feel like consulting the gods if I get an idea how to do it. I’m too anxious for, I don’t know what, something just happen anyhow I wont mind.

Anyways, I have been working on one of the things I have always wanted to do in life (call it one of my dreams) and unfortunately there are lots of uncertainties due to the pandemic (Covid 19) and it just sucks because I’m stuck and almost tired but I’m not giving up on that one unless I’m ready to die ( not anytime soon) and I cant wait to announce the move right here soon (smiles shyly). However, I’m tired of a number of things and I want to direct my wrath to them for the sake of my soul and some sleep tonight.

I’m so tired of explaining myself to both strangers and people I have known all my life. Leave me alone please. Enough of the inspection and follow ups on me please, I can no longer paint my little dimpled smile on my face. I have had enough of me trying to be neutral to all parties and being considerate of every situation and action from wicked and selfish people.

Enough of me not being enough to anything and constantly failing to meet all of their expectations. I’m almost tired of all the ‘perfect’ acts. I’m now ready for criticism, hate and all the shade they be throwing at people who have had enough.

Who am I answerable to? why am the one who carries the guilt where we both failed? Cant I correct my earlier mistake by quitting the project or calling it off with no explanations? Can I also have the freedom to choose another path when I realize the other one is headed in the wrong direction? I want to look back and see me Not a thousand faces covering every event and decisions I got to make.

I hate blame games and I actually decided to take responsibility of my every little actions and so far, so good. I can’t be sipping wine like whiskey just because I don’t have the right sitting posture and nothing looks interesting right now. I’m tired of typing too tonight. Someone help me hibernate and watch the earth at an angle because I need to come back and be me whatsoever. Ultimately I must do well and do good simultaneously.

I’M TIRED

cheers!!

Miss curiosity.

Things that annoy me

I took a break from writing because something bad happened and I couldn’t get a minute to write but I’m back hope you all missed me.

Before I pen down the long list of things that I consider annoying I’m already annoyed because I woke up excited today did my morning routine and attended a successful appointment. On my way back just opposite where I stay I decided to have my car washed but fuck! on alighting I dropped my beautiful, beautiful A50 which I really treasure and broke the screen if you know how painful that feels. What the fudge! I left almost crying but there is nothing much I could do I just thought it is the perfect day to write about the things that suck.

  1. People who are always in your inbox writing hey, hi, how are you everyday, three times a day, whole week, through the month. Come on! It’s not like I don’t appreciate people who are concerned about my well being but hey! check our relationship and give me time to attend to other important things after all the answer is always I’m okay even when I’m not so cut down the crap and do genuine and reasonable checking ins on people.
  2. Lack of Etiquette. what does it cost to show conventional decorum and just being polite? You can still raise yourself up if you missed those codes of polite social life, by practicing them. It is not hard at all I promise. I believe etiquette makes us human enough and EVERYBODY needs it. Incase you are wondering what are those petty things that are stressing me they include; I’m sorry, excuse me, Please, thank you etc.
  3. I get so annoyed when people line up in long queues only to reach at the service point then start deciding what they wanted. Honestly what could you be busy thinking all that long until you forget you are standing for something? Just go back and come prepared. Queues suck too.
  4. This one is kinda funny but sucks. Those people who make loud calls in public what’s usually your point? Can’t those calls wait if you have no lower tone than that? Shortly before the pandemic I happened to be at an airport and witnessed some guy dragged by security because he was shouting on phone and heading the opposite direction from the rest of the crowd. Trust me the guy had not committed any crime but the behaviour was suspicious. No one is interested in your conversation or want to be involved keep it private please
  5. People who don’t rinse off the bathroom after use. How the hell do you leave a bathroom with hair all over or foam on walls and feel clean yourself, who raised you human? It is totally disgusting and so uncomfortable for the next user for hygiene sake.
  6. Can we also talk about how people don’t find it necessary letting a door close slowly or hold a door for a second for the next person when they are so close. Damn! it sucks slamming doors and worse doing it when the person behind you is two steps away. Please!
  7. As a host I would also like to advice you to keep your comments while in someones house if they aren’t compliments or positive comments. They annoy and are absolutely unnecessary I promise. Everyone has their own rules, liking and procedures at their houses.
  8. Back to phones, now that we use them all the time It doesn’t make sense leaving someone over 10 missed calls within hours or a day. If the person wants to call back be sure one or two missed calls will be seen. Thanks
  9. People who show a lot of intimacy and affection to their partners in public I’m not sure I come from a rural set up but I don’t find it something pleasant. There is some word called privacy and I think such things fit in there. We have kids and non-interested people watching you kindly save it for later.
  10. This one I also do sometimes but sorry I shouldn’t cause it annoys.While having a conversation it is rude and it sucks interrupting without excusing yourself. In addition to that it doesn’t feel right completing peoples sentences unless the speaker gives room for that. let people express themselves fully and in their own way. Thanks.

I know my list could go on and on but let me leave it at that for today.

Yours Miss Curiosity,

cheers!

Generosity

It is a good morning from my end,

I have heard this word a number of times especially during this pandemic and thought I should pen down something I know about it. There could be several definitions but I strongly attach other words at the back of my mind when I let the word out of my mouth; charity, empathy, kindness, responsibility, selflessness and abundance. Clearly generosity entails being liberal in giving and in most cases not expecting anything in return.

Examples of things people can offer or receive as acts of generosity are;

Gifts

Time

Assets

Money

Knowledge

Listening

Gratitude

Acceptance

the list can go on,

If I may brag a little bit I always think being human enough generosity is not a debatable topic everyone should be generous like me( winks). This lead me to questioning, why is it so? what’s the drive behind generosity? is there a measure of generosity? what’s the cost of generosity?So I recently started analyzing how and what it feels like to people and my personal thoughts when we practice the acts of generosity and these are a few things I was able to come up with.

listening and time are limitless valuable acts of generosity because it takes patience, prioritizing, consciousness and continuous attention to give or get them.

Money and assets are a ‘feel good’ kind of acts which means they mostly involve emotions and nothing attached to abundance as most people think or would expect.

Acceptance and gratitude is more of acknowledging virtual largeness in a person and being liberal in giving it away. It is also the act that allows people do things not because they agree but because of the human spirit and open-mindedness.

Gifting is an interesting kind of an act of generosity because it is a gift itself and it’s also a selfish act because it is done to acquire freedom of meanness or smallness of character to show close familiarity or friendship (intimacy) a key that unlocks the power of authenticity. It is also an emotional act and to be precise it should be positive emotions.

Sharing knowledge or skill as an act of generosity is the best kind of thing to do because you are directly influencing persons and giving them power right at that moment and in their future. it mainly involves abundance, sense of leadership and competitiveness in making the world a better place.

How many times have I mentioned the word generosity huh! don’t get tired yet cause I’m about to ask you to start a #generosity. Kidding! I was taking a break to give you time to go through the questions I had above cause I’m about to pull some sense out of them and here we go.

I’m not a religion inclined person so I prefer leaving the religious answers to the questions above for thise who can and do it in a more basic and scientific way. Scientific investigations used to examine generosity on individuals conclude that it has potential links to neurochemicals such the love hormone (oxytocin) and similar feelings (virtues).In my perusals I came across a very interesting research by Paul J. Zak published in Library of Science (please go read about it) where they used the popular Dictator Game and Ultimatum Game to measure generosity and this what they concluded;

-generosity is an offer greater than the minimum amount needed for acceptance

-the Love Hormone increases generosity by 80%, so you better increase your levels of the hormone soon enough

-Higher- income individuals are less generous that than poorer people (Giving money as an act of generosity) and that doesn’t mean you stop making a lot of money because you want to become more generous

As mentioned earlier I associate generosity to charity which is supposed to be purely without expectations unfortunately most people do it for recognition, publicity or actually as a means to shield behind their vices. I will share this link for you to read The hidden costs of generosity written by Conrad De Aenlle in 2010 https://www.nytimes.com/2010/11/24/your-money/24iht-nwgift.html and 5 Acts of generosity that will transform Your life by ChimpChange in 2017 https://www.chimpchange.me/2017/11/5-acts-of-generosity-that-will-transform-your-life-and-others/ to help you become a better human.

Misscuriosity,

Copying Vogue’s 73 questions

By now hopefully everyone has come across the famous series of 73 questions with (a celebrity name videos posted online by Vogue Magazine. If you haven’t, no worries. The series are created by Joe Sabia and they’re basically 73 rapid-fire questions asked to a celebrity and answered in about 10 minutes.

So I’m seated and thinking I have watched so many celebrities answer those questions and its quite easy and fun why don’t I also try because it’s another way of making you know me even better just like I would like to read yours when you tag me in your posts. Although I didn’t copy any exact set of questions asked to a particular celebrity all are picked from the series and here is my version;

  1. What’s your biggest weakness? Overthinking
  2. What’s your idea of a perfect date? A night out, dinner, dim lights short walks and a lot of talking.
  3. What’s one vice you wish you could give up? Comparison
  4. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? ‘You are the most intelligent girl I have ever met’ that was sweet
  5. When are you the most inspired? When I see my peers doing something really interesting
  6. Sweet or savory? Savory
  7. Are ghosts real? I’m not sure but I doubt they aren’t real
  8. What song can you listen to on repeat? Quite a number but Justin Timberlake’s Mirror for the question
  9. What makes you smile the most? Babies smiling at me
  10. Are Aliens real? Probably
  11. What’s under your bed? Nothing. The hell would I have stuff under my bed? I actually check under bed to make sure it’s clear before I sleep. That scared me
  12. Are you proud of what you are doing with your heart and time right now? To be honest No I’m not
  13. Vintage or new? New
  14. What’s your current TV character obsession? None
  15. If you could buy one material thing and money was not an issue what would it be? A house with a private beach
  16. How would you define yourself in three words? Self-motivated, sapiosexual and all round
  17. Would you ever adopt a child? I have always considered this but I haven’t done it yet but most likely I will
  18. On a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? With the current pandemic 4
  19. Describe yourself in a hashtag? #Misscuriosity
  20. Do you want to get married? Again to be honest I think marriage is a beautiful thing especially if you marry the right person but it’s among the least of my priorities
  21. If you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? My boyfriend
  22. What’s your wakeup ritual? Visiting the washroom, brushing teeth, making lemon water and checking my mail.
  23. Are you a morning person? Hell no I’m a sleepy head
  24. Do you have trust issues? YES
  25. What’s your favorite time of day? In the evening because I have a view of the sun setting down the lake.
  26. Dream country to visit? Singapore
  27. What do you when you’re pissed off? Scroll through my phone checking nothing or sit in the toilet and avoid the world.
  28. What’s the biggest surprise you’ve had? I don’t think I have one I could call big but I’m hoping I’lll have one
  29. What’s one ingredient you put in everything? Lemon
  30. What’s your biggest fear in life? Do I really have one? I doubt
  31. Secret talent? No Idea
  32. Best piece of advice you’ve received? If I can’t buy it twice I don’t afford it
  33. Best advice you’d give your teenage self? There is power in waiting and consistency is the only way to make it.
  34. What would you like to be remembered for? Kindness
  35. What do you love most about your body? Honestly I don’t have what I love most maybe something I hate most could me easier
  36. If you could master one instrument, what would it be? A violin
  37. What’s your spirit animal? A unicorn
  38. Best gift you’ve ever received? My personal person is my best gift
  39. Best gift you’ve ever give? My time and concern
  40. What’s your favorite color? Blue
  41. Coffee or tea? Coffee. It’s not like I hate tea but I’d choose Coffee over it
  42. You are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? I’ll eat peas whether cooked or uncooked, steamed, boiled, fried or a as stew
  43. If you made a documentary, what would it be about? If not about the millenial life crisis it has to be agriculture
  44. Last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? Family issues I don’t want to write about it unless I want to cry again.
  45. How do you know you’re in love? When I don’t know why I love the person and when I become stupid with the person
  46. What’s the weirdest word in the English language? I literally can’t think of any weird words
  47. If you had one superpower, what would it be? The power to control time
  48. Last book you read? Margaret Thatcher’s autobiography
  49. Coolest thing in the world? I can’t think of any other impressive thing as Technology.
  50. What’s something you notice about someone when you first meet them? I mostly notice their sense of humor and eye contact.
  51. What’s your guilty pleasure? Being an opportunist and popping pimples. I can’t even discuss these with myself.
  52. What’s your favorite holiday? All holidays are my favorite because I treat them as free days
  53. If you could raid one woman’s closet who would it be? Beyonce
  54. What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to try but you’ve been too scared to do? Starting a YouTube channel. Silly right? I also don’t know why I’m afraid
  55. What’s the one thing you wish you knew at age 19? I wish I knew I was better that I thought
  56. Besides your phone or wallet, what’s a couple of must-have purse items? Lip gloss, a pen, note book, sanitizer, wipes, pocket tissues, a nail cutter, perfume, lotion, charger and a floss. I hope you all also carry a lot of things so that I don’t look stupid here
  57. If you were not a blogger or group fitness instructor, what would you be doing? I would be doing covers, and trying on Jeopardy tests
  58. What’s something you can’t do? I don’t know yet I’m still trying on everything
  59. Favorite food? I’m a meat lover
  60. What’s the one talent you wish you had?  I wish I could be a ventriloquist. The art is damn spectacular
  61. What’s something you don’t want to be doing in 10 years? Call me lazy but I really don’t want to be folding my clothes 
  62. Do you like surprises? Mmh! Yes and No. I mean it depends with who is surprising me and what the surprise is about. No lies I would love surprising good news or tangibles from my loved ones and hate surprise visits or bad news. Get it
  63. What’s one thing you had to learn the hard way? I am the only thing I need in life
  64. What’s something you’re tired of? I tired of trying too much.
  65. What are your bad habits? Procrastinating, over-doing things, underestimating myself, not giving a fuck
  66. What phobias do you have? Acrophobia, entomophobia, Numerophobia and Arithmomania. These four I can’t deal with them
  67. When was the last time you cried? A couple of hours ago
  68. What do you miss most? I miss my childhood summers and specifically where I grew up
  69. First pet? Well, I have never kept a pet but I’m sure I’d keep a dove as my first pet
  70. Do you like your neighbors? Lol I actually don’t hate my neighbors but to be honest I don’t like my adjacent neighbor because she can’t let me be me (hope she reads this)
  71. When do you laugh the most? When I’m with my best friend, family, on phone, while high. Okay so do I even laugh less?
  72. 73.Where do you see yourself in10years? I have no Idea



Wow! The honesty in the 73 answers is quite impressive I know.

Yours
Misscuriosity,

Things that will not allow you to succeed in life. #generationy


Growing up my parents made me think the only way to succeed in life is scoring top grades at school and getting a good paying job which is obviously not the case in real life. Through my own experience and from the older people I have interacted with, I realized there’re a thousand ‘small’ factors and decisions that can make a person never succeed in life.Here are a few;

1. Willingness: it’s funny that people who are not willing to fail will actually not succeed in their plans because success is one word covering all factors around success and its opposite (failure)

2. People who hold on to their past whether good or bad; the world keeps on changing, you are changing just like I am which makes people who don’t leave the past where it belongs and move on fall in the category.

3. Lacking a why in your life is another sure road to never interacting with success. A friend of mine taught me to always answer why to both a serious and “stupid” decision I make in life just to be sure I need it.

4. People who start with quantity and end with quality.

5. Over valuing your academic smartness and forgetting there exists life idiots who are academically champions. Do I really need to stress on this one?

6. Satisfaction. Don’t get me wrong,, everyone needs to be satisfied with the product of their efforts but getting satisfied with life is not a good idea especially if success to you means what it means to me huh! I mean don’t stop seeking knowledge and doing better even when you see good results.

7. Do you remember those motivational speakers who told you that you are the sum average of your five close friends? Yeah! Avoid negative friends as a plague because those blackhearts in the name of friends will not allow you see success.

8. Egoism is also not needed on your road to success just keep it in mind that you better use peoples experiences as compared to your own especially when it’s from mistakes which usually carries the larger part of lessons you take from experiences anyways, not forgetting social connections are as important as that which you want to work around.

9. Heard #generationy talk of ‘ATT’? Hope you’ve read this somewhere ‘nothing can stop a man with the right mental attitude from achieveing his goal; nothing can help the man with wrong mental attitude. Need I say more?

Hope my list is helpful to someone and freely add to the list.

Miss Curiosity,

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me and

Welcome to the blog!

I’m looking forward to explore the #insomniacblueishlife with you.

I’m glad you stopped by the post to check out my blog, I appreciate.

This is a personal blog where I’ll express how I feel, know or intend to have my take on anything I’ll write about. I intend to write atleast three times a week if not all days. Your feedback, comments, likes, honest positive cristism or suggestions are highly welcome.

My blog will not stick to the generation y topics alone because I love exploring, experimenting and obviously nothing is constant in this planet earth. I’ll be devoted and hopefully fun.

Thanks for letting me,

Miss Curiosity.

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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